Today’s Facebook “On This Day” post was one that made me smile. It is the following blog post:
Yup, that was it. That was by far the closest I’ve come to skipping a day. Of all of the almost 500 days, Day 108 is one that will live in infamy. It was a rough day, a rough week, it was cold and dark, and I was just in a terrible mood. I was tired of things not working out the way I wanted. There was NOTHING that I was thankful for that day.
That’s when Becky saved the day (& everyday thereafter). I was tempted to quit, but she helped push me forward. As I kept throwing out bullshit excuse after bullshit excuse when she was pushing and pushing for me to come up with something she finally stumbled onto the heated car seats. “FINE! That’s what I’ll be thankful for today and then I can quit tomorrow,” was what the voice in my head was saying. I then proceeded to write the worst post in the history of the blog.
It may be the worst, but quite honestly it may be one of the few I hold closest to my heart. I had a choice that day. Quit or figure out what I was doing wrong that caused this day to happen. Thanks to support from Becky and the grit that I had to keep going quitting was never really an option.
As I thought about it while laying in bed I knew what I had to do. The first handful of days were relatively easy to come up with what I was thankful for. There was almost a mental list that I kind of had prepped and ready and that list was pretty much exhausted. From this point forward I had to start watching for things to be thankful for from the point I woke up until the time I went to bed. I had to be more vigilant and really seek out things to be thankful for. This was the turning point for me, this was when I started truly living the purpose of the blog.
In almost everyday since I’ve had to struggle to pick just one thing to be thankful for! It’s crazy, but when I finally really started seeking out things to be thankful for I was almost crushed by the huge number of things that I should appreciate. How crazy, just by changing my perspective I was now overwhelmed by the number of positive things around me! Nothing else changed, just my perspective… and all because I made the conscious decision to change. The same decision that all of us can make.
As an interesting side note, I don’t remember why Day 108 sucked so bad! I can’t recall any of what was going on in my life at that time, yet in the moment it seemed absolutely brutal. Isn’t it funny, the things that we stress about fade into the background and are easily forgotten, but that which we are thankful for endures.
Today I’m thankful for the worst bringing out the best. Had I not had a day in which I was that frustrated I would have probably continued to drift until this blog died with nothing but a whimper. By facing that moment I was forced to make a decision, and I made the right one.