Tonight’s kind of a weird one. The day has been fantastic all around. Great progress on things at work, a strong feeling of living towards my purpose, progress on some personal goals, a wonderful walk up the bluffs over lunch, and an amazing yoga class. All good stuff, all day. How weird is it then that I’m most thankful for a reminder of one of my faults?
Yesterday I finally did something I’d been meaning to do for almost two weeks. I send an email of appreciation to the boss and boss’ boss of someone who helped me out tremendously. The purpose of the email was to thank them for a great hire and share an example of what a great impact this person has had on my teams and on me. Essentially, a pumped up thank you going to her leaders instead of just her.
When I spoke with her today she shared that her boss had shared it with her and how appreciative she was for the email. I could hear the emotion in her voice as she thanked me for taking the time to appreciate her and thanked me for “finding the time in my busy schedule to write an email like that.” My initial thought was joy in hearing the joy in her voice. The second thought was a little disappointment in myself.
I’d meant to send that email weeks ago. I could’ve sent a handwritten thank you card to her as well to accentuate how much I appreciate her. The funny thing is that this person has sent me more thank you notes in less than a year than I’ve sent in total to everyone in the past year. She is a living example of gratitude and I didn’t take action right away like I should have.
So while we talked I had this wave of disappointment rush over me and I took time to soak it in for a few minutes after the call. After thinking I realized just how much I appreciated this reminder of one of my faults, my lack of follow through on showing appreciation to others. Crazy, right? The gratitude guy doesn’t spend as much time writing thank you notes as he should… Argh!!! Cue and apply facepalm.
This slap upside the head was something I was very grateful for today. In this case my fault still led to her seeing my appreciation while reminding me of the gap I have to close between who I am and who I am called to be. I can either wallow in my disappointment or I can get off my butt and do something about it. How wonderful to have a reminder of my faults to remind me to push myself to be the best version of me.
The funny thing is that I’m pretty sure I owe her another thank you… and this one I’ll be writing shortly.