Wasn’t it just a few days ago that I felt like I had closed the gap? This evening I feel like the Grand Canyon has opened wider than it has in a long time. I had an opportunity to see just how much work I need to do to live into being a better me and it was quite humbling. I lost my cool, I let emotions get the better of me, and wish I could have a do over, but I can’t. I can learn from this experience, use the memory of it as a way to grow forward, and as an opportunity to be better in the future.
Days like today are difficult but important. Days that hurt and don’t feel good are opportunities to grow. It would be easy to get pulled into frustration, anger, and other negative thoughts, but that won’t help anything. The question to keep in mind is “What can I learn from this?” That will unlock the keys and help me process.
I’m also grateful for this daily practice of taking time to pause and reflect. This was exactly what my brain needed today to help process – and a good night of sleep!
Days like this don’t happen often, when they do I am doubly thankful. I’m thankful for all the wonderful days that haven’t been like this that are so easy to take for granted AND I’m appreciative for the opportunity to grow and learn. Beyond the edges are where we truly find ourselves.
I was almost too present in a specific meeting today, and not in a good way. Due to the way I reacted I continued to get more and more worked up when I really should have been pausing to breathe, to zoom out, and to create a little space. Interesting that as much as I appreciate presence that there is a point in which can become a negative. There’s a lot to unpack from today.