It’s funny how this blog thing works sometimes. On my drive to work this morning I had and idea and started to write it in my head. Over lunch I started typing it up, but it just didn’t quite feel right. The writing was fine and all, but it just didn’t quite seem to fit as well today as I’ve come to expect after 989 straight days of blogging. It was very deep, serious, and introspective, but it was just off a little.
As the day went on there was another vibe I was getting but I couldn’t quite nail down what it was. It wasn’t until after getting home and eating dinner with Becky that the real thing I’m thankful for today was right under my nose. It was so simple, I can’t believe I missed it as long as I did! Funny how sometimes I find that when I stop looking so hard to find something and I finally let go of the search that I collide right in what I had been searching for all along.
Throughout the day I’d occasionally think about Dad’s death a year ago today. That thought would only linger for a moment and was then quickly replaced with a happy memory. In some cases they were memories from when I was a kid, in others it was in the days and weeks shortly after he’d passed. Some memories were super happy, others funny, and some serious. At random moments I’d hear something, even just a word and a memory would pop in and bring a smile to my face. All day long I was surrounded by happy memories of my dad, my family, and my friends. It was beautiful.
The only thing that even compares to the happy memories was all the love I felt from so many friends and family. An extra hug here, a text there, a conversation somewhere in between, and a random joke or two thrown in and there was no way I could avoid strong feelings of love from so many. If at any point I didn’t have a memory bouncing in my head making me smile there was surely a whole lot of love I felt from so many.
So here I am, a year after my dad’s death and I’m grinning from ear to ear, feeling so much joy thanks to so many people and so many happy memories! I wish he was here to share the day with him and I’d give almost anything to have one more day with him, but I’m sure he’s smiling from up above. Odds are he might’ve pulled a few strings to help me out today.
To each and everyone who knowingly (& in some cases unknowingly) contributed to my joy today through memories and love – thank you, thank you, thank you! I appreciate each of you and am so grateful to have you in my life!