Sometimes the movies I enjoy the most are the ones that I’ve been warned to have low expectations for. I’m told that they’re okay, but not super, go in with low expectations. Once in a while my friends are right on the money and the movie sucked, but more often the movie turns out to be one that I really enjoy.
Today was kind of like that. I’ve heard so much from so many people about how awful a colonoscopy was that I was fearing for the worst. In my brain I had pictured every single part of it being one of the worst experiences of my life. That added some extra stress and I mentally prepped myself for one of the most awful experiences ever. My mind was primed and ready for the worst case scenario in every step.
With that in mind, I was incredibly surprised at how smooth and simple everything went today. Don’t get me wrong, I’m in no hurry to get back there in five years, but it wasn’t the horrific experience I was expecting. The drink did’t make me gag (though I was using a packet of Lemonade Crystal Light made for 16+ ounces in an 8 ounce cup). I felt full while drinking it, but not terrible. Fasting wasn’t fun, but it reminded me that I really do eat more than I need to most of the time. The IV sucked and I had my normal big drop in heart rate, lightheadedness, and nausea, but it all subsided quickly (and the nurses I had were AWESOME and took great care of me). While I was out before the procedure started I was awake for the last 10 minutes. It didn’t hurt (I was still higher than a kite) and it was interesting to see them look under the hood… I even got to watch them remove the lone polyp, that was kind of neat! After the procedure the anesthetic wore off super quick and I was up on both feet and moving in no time.
There’s a fine line between stressing out to the point of freaking out and expecting the worst in order to be ready for it. In this situation I was able to stay to the good side and it paid off. It wasn’t nearly as bad as I expected, and I’m very thankful for that!