Thankful for an Awful Run

Day 3,608

Yessir, I am actually grateful for what was one of the worst runs I’ve had in quite some time this morning. My legs were sore and flat. I was tired and hadn’t slept the greatest. As I started running I had some pretty sharp pain in my right ankle. At about the furthest point from home I started cramping up from needing to make a pit stop. I ran, I walked, I bend over, I walked more, and then ran. All in all, it was an awful run.

All that said, I did it. I still ran. Even though it sucked I still went out and got moving. That part felt good afterwards.

This put into perspective how much more I should appreciate each of my normal runs that are less eventful and less painful. Each of those runs sometimes can be a bit unpleasant, but they all pale in comparison to this one. The next subpar run I have I’ll think back to this one and think, “whew, at least it wasn’t THAT run!” My run on Friday will likely feel divine!

Last, I’m grateful that I was taking in oxygen and able to run today. Even though it wasn’t pleasant I was still alive to do it. I wasn’t sidelined due to injury, I was able to get out of bed and get moving. That in of itself is something to be grateful for, something I often take for granted.

Funny how we sometimes remember the challenging times, we reset our gratitude levels after difficulty. Today’s run was awful, but it was one I can be thankful for!

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Internal Focus, Discomfort, & a Mundane Moment

Day 3,607

Growth:

The essence of philosophy is that a man should so live that his happiness shall depend as little as possible on external things.

– Epictetus

Appreciation:

Wow, I am sore today! The workout from yesterday was fantastic, I’m still feeling the after effects of it today. Many sore muscles, but all in a very positive way. The feeling of a solid workout like that is quite the sense of positive suffering. That is the sensation of growth, of a body being pushed and then growing stronger than it was. Uncomfortable, but in a very positive way.

As our priest used to say, joy is not the same as comfort. Tonight I’m not comfortable, but I am joyful.

Presence:

Nothing like driving to Menards with Gavin to remind me of all the time I’d go there with Dad back in the day. So many laughs, some actual life lessons, and a lot of good old fashioned fun. A wonderful opportunity to spend time together doing something extraordinarily mundane.

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Doing Right Over Being Right, Living in a Time of Rapid Change, & Yoga HIIT

Day 3,606

Growth:

When I was younger I always wanted to be right. Now I would rather do right, even if it means admitting I was wrong. Set the ego aside, listen with the intention of learning rather than verifying what I already “know.” That’s where wisdom can start to sink in.

Appreciation:

Tonight I’m very grateful for living in an era of unprecedented change and growth. While working through my day I had an idea pop up and it led me down a short but wildly productive path along which I never would have imagined even three months ago. The lightbulb flipped on and I realized I needed to ask for the help in how to ask for the right type of help, and it appeared! Next thing I knew I had created a resource I will likely be utilizing each week to keep me focused in the right direction while also preparing for challenges I never would have expected.

Presence:

Going from yoga to High Intensity Interval Training in one session was amazing! For sure, I am a total wreck, but it was awesome. The blood was pumping, I maybe got a little woozy for a few minutes, but that session was a doozy! Very grateful for Becky signing us up for this one a while back, it hurt in a very positive way.

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Cooling Off, an Off Day, & Kitchen Table Games with Family

Day 3,605

Growth:

When in doubt, pause and take a breath. I hit a frustrating moment with a project, ran into another frustration, and then finally had one more ARGH moment. I took a deep breath, put everything away, and moved on. After taking enough time to chill I went back to the project and everything went much better – not perfect – but better.

When the blood starts to boil take time to cool it back down. Remember the lesson from Ender’s Game:

He could see Bonzo’s anger growing hot.  Hot anger was bad.  Ender’s anger was cold, and he could use it.  Bonzo’s anger was hot, and so it used him.

Ender’s Game

Appreciation:

Some days I don’t have my A game all day, I get frustrated, ornery, and get a bit pissy. Those days obviously are not fun or preferred, but they are often opportunities to learn more about myself. It ties back to the quote from yesterday (as well as a few others from Epictetus). Off days like this are opportunities to learn more about why I get frustrated and how I can best work through them.

All good, nothing crazy or ridiculous, just an off day. Too many of those in a row and I’ve got issues, they don’t ever happen and I probably have other things to worry about! All wonderful opportunities to grow!

Presence:

Playing games as a family around the kitchen table, what a perfect way to wrap up the weekend!

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Another Notable Epictetus Insight, a Deep Hiking Conversation, & a Wedding

Day 3,604

Growth:

Circumstances don’t make the man, they only reveal him to himself.

Epictetus

Appreciation:

On our hike this morning Becky and I got into a handful of deep conversation topics, some that had me thinking very deeply. The power of gratitude over fear, love over hate, how to be joyful when life throws curveballs. We also delved into the outward impact of others versus the outward impact of the individual, and a touch of believing in something much greater than ourselves and the power of that belief – in any form – to help hums become more grounded within the world and ourselves.

The hike itself was amazing, the views spectacular, and the conversation still has my brain working overtime.

Presence:

Always fun gathering with those we don’t gather with often. A time to share stories and memories. So much laughter this evening at the wedding, it was awesome spending time with so many family members. We never know how much time we have left, the times like this become all the more special when we remember to pause and appreciate them.

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Wrapping Up a Week of Normal(ish)

Day 3,603

Whew!!! The work week is in the books and it was a beast in a very positive way. Seeing lots of growth, many positive things all happening, very exciting for sure.

The biggest part of today was that feeling of a week of normal(ish). Not 100% back to everything as usual, but getting close. A couple of more weeks and stage one of about three will be complete. The next couple will also be challenging, but have the likelihood of being just as rewarding as this stage has gone.

Nights at home have been wonderful, getting the odds and ends worked on – changing the van lights, building the posts for the deck, grilling supper a few times. My appreciation for tasks like those have increased after the nonstop month. Time with family, relaxing with no deadlines, staying home – all good stuff!

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Appreciating the Moment, Sleeping In, & Dinner with Family

Day 3,602

Growth:

Appreciate each moment, be present where we need to be. We never know which one will be a big one, which one we’ll be thankful we were there for.

Appreciation:

There are some days when sleeping in is one hundred percent the right answer – and today was one of those days! I hit the snooze, slept in, still got to work early, and felt extra re-charged all day long! It was amazing!!! Whoever would have thought that listening to my body and seeing what I really need would be a good idea???

Presence:

An awesome dinner with Dominic and Caitlyn while sitting out on the deck – priceless!

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Expending Right Effort in Right Ways, Working In the Zone, & the Morning Run

Day 3,601

Growth:

Take time to pause, teach, and your efforts will be rewarded. Utilize that energy wisely, this only works when you have right people!

Appreciation:

The overwhelming majority of my work day was spent in meetings with clients and training my teammates. Throughout the day I was running full speed and in the zone, by the ride home I was exhausted, but so energized at the same time! While there’s a ton going on and so much to get done I can’t help but be buzzing with excitement as I see where this is going so rapidly. The past three days have been bonkers, but I’m certainly enjoying it!

Presence:

Starting the morning with our run was fantastic as always. I know, I’ve been thankful for it often recently, but that quiet chill time with Becky while getting some exercise in has been so rejuvenating and invigorating at the same time!

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Running Out of Gas, Better than Expected, &Working with My Hands

Day 3,600

Growth:

We really can be thankful for anything should we choose the right mindset. When I started the grill to make supper there was no flame due to running out of gas. I chuckled to myself and realized how fortunate it was to run out with this timing as I hadn’t put anything on the grill.

As I drove home from the grocery store after exchanging the LP tanks I was remained of a comment from a friend five or so years ago… “Kreiling can be thankful for anything, seriously, he was once grateful for running out of gas while grilling and he blogged about it!”

Here I was again, facing a potential frustration, running out of gas, and I was still choosing appreciation.

To those moments when I get frustrated, remember moments like this. The ability to choose frustration or joy lies not in the situation, but in my own head.

Appreciation:

Above I mentioned how frustrating times can still lead to joy through appreciation. I’m also very grateful for the times when things go even better than expected – like today! There were more than a couple of times when I was pleased to see things turning out even better than expected. Seeing them all work out like this was one of those moments in which I almost had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. Sure, I will work to see the appreciation in the frustrating, but seeing it in the awesome turns is pretty sweet too!

Presence:

It may have only been one hour, but the one hour of working on the deck railing was exactly the chill I needed to wrap up a busy day. Pausing to do some work with my hands, something physically tangible, creating. So rewarding after a day of thought work.

Thanks!!!

Thankful for Positive People, a Busy and Productive Day, & Our Normal Morning Run

Day 3,599

Growth:

The right people make an exponentially positive impact on the joy of the entire team. Amazing how one’s positive energy can be multiplied over many others!

Appreciation:

That was a long and intense day! All good and well worth the extra time. As I think back to the day I can’t help but see how much positive momentum we’ve been making all day. There was a lot of work put in by all, and it’s exciting to see some early inertia being built. Throw in some conversations building stronger relationships with clients and it was wildly productive. In some ways, more importantly, it was fun. Even though I’ll be going to bed exhausted it was well worth it.

Presence:

Getting back to normal today included our pre-sunrise run and it felt amazing! Getting some quiet time while exercising and spending time with the two of us (& Leia) was a wonderful start to the week!

Thanks!!!