Day 3,059
Alright, here goes nothing. We are going to try recording my blog via voice recording again. Should be interesting. 😉
Growth.
What I’m most thankful for today from a growth standpoint is the acceptance of the fact that I need rest. I am exhausted. I am worn out. It has been a wild couple of weeks. One of the things I track every night is how much sleep I got the previous day. I’m usually in a beautiful zone of seven to eight hours of sleep per night.
Over the past six nights, it’s been less than seven, which is a huge red flag for me. I am definitely feeling it.
It’s been well worth it. I’ve been staying up late to do things with Gavin. Still waking up early to get my workout in with Becky.
And it just seems like it’s always so worth it. It’s so much easier to sacrifice a little bit of sleep knowing that there’s something else I could be doing, a different project to work on, some fitness to get in, some of those types of things.
At this point though, it’s sleepy time for me.
What I’m most thankful for is the fact that I’m realizing that I need some rest tonight. I’m going to sleep like a champ, and that’s okay. I skipped my workout over lunch today, just to give myself a little bit of extra rest. I’m getting my blog done early, and I plan on being in bed immediately following yoga tonight.
It’s not a good thing to be tired all the time, and it’s a good thing to know when it’s time to get caught back up. Here’s to some great sleep this evening.
Appreciation.
I’ve started reading Thomas Merton’s, The New Seeds of Contemplation, for, I believe,the fifth or sixth time, and every time, it just leaves me feeling completely uncomfortable in a wonderful way. While I’ve read it a handful of times, there’s certain concepts that just need to be revisited over and over again in order to try to fit. There are other concepts that I just wasn’t ready for in the previous reads, that now I’m picking up on, and I hear, and they cause me to want to change and to grow, and there’s still so many times when the words of advice and wisdom that Merton is sharing cause me to feel very uncomfortable, because it challenges me, it challenges my mindset, it pushes me out of my comfort zone that I like to kind of turtle up in sometimes, of being able to
have some quiet and some solitude, when really, the right thing to do is to spend time with people, to push myself past that discomfort of spending time with people, and to be with others. And that’s one of the big things that I’m taking away from this time through the book.
I am really glad that I’m okay with re-reading a book that makes me feel so uncomfortable. It’s difficult, there have been a lot of moments when I’ve paused and rewound and thought through and just sat in silence to take in, but it’s all helpful because I can feel that in that discomfort is growth. I’ve still got a long ways to go, I have a feeling I’ve got dozens more times to read this book before it finally, truly starts to fit and to maybe feel right, but for the time being, I’m embracing the discomfort and just leaning right into it.
Presence.
My moment of presence this morning was the moment my alarm went off and I knew I had to get out of bed. I was exhausted, I was half asleep, but I knew it was time to get up. Every ounce of my body and my head wanted to go back to sleep, but I had to run to get in.
I am so glad that I made the decision to get up and run, I am so glad that I had the fun that I had last night hanging out with Gavin watching the Super Bowl, but I’m really also glad for the sleep I’m going to get tonight as I talked about earlier. That moment reminded me and was essentially what kick-started my mindset of realizing
I need to get some sleep tonight and start to get caught back up.
Here’s to that moment of waking up when we really don’t want to, but we know it’s the right thing to do.
Thanks!!!