Day 2,921

Growth:

I have a compulsion for fixing things, it is in my nature and sometimes it is a wonderful strength. There are other times when it can cause issues and unnecessary challenges. The wisdom is in realizing which time is which and acting accordingly.

I prefer to take action rather than sit back and let things happen. My default is motion rather than pause. Sometimes taking time to pause and let nature run its course is the right choice, but I struggle to do that.

When these two butt up against each other I struggle to figure out the right way to react – to push forward and fix or to pause and the let fix happen on its own without my intervention.

Today I am remembering to pause to weigh out which response is correct prior to acting. The pause frustrates me, but I know it is the right solution, not action. I must remember to pause and think, to be aware of the situation, and to then choose the right response rather than let my nature take its course.

Appreciation:

Throughout the day it is so easy to get stressed and worked up about so many things. So many possible stressors and challenges that can cause me to get agitated or draw away my focus. Each irritant compounds with the last until I’m focused on the entirely wrong things. On the contrary, the same thing can happen with good things too. It is so easy to allow the gravity of little positivities pull me off track and in the wrong direction.

Tonight was a wonderful example of how important it is to remember what is truly important, to focus on what is truly important, and to let those relatively meaningless things – positive and negative – roll of me like water on a duck’s back and to stay focused on what is truly important.

Presence:

While driving home from Eau Claire I had a moment of pause to appreciate the views of the bluffs as I drove through Arcadia. I had an awesomely intense moment of purposeful presence to soak in all around me. The dark green grass, the steel blue clouds, the white mist rising from the valleys of the bluffs with a sea of green leaves broken up by patches of oranges, reds, and yellows. The song Crossfire by Brandon Flowers vibrating the inside of the car as the windshield wipers slowly pushed away the raindrops. For a moment there was nothing else in the world, only existence in that moment, and it was amazing.

Thanks!!!